“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own under standing. Acknowledge the Lord in all of your ways, and He will make your path straight.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
I have this on my heart for the moment.
I know what it is like to depend on others. I know what it is like to feel that I cannot survive without someone’s attention, financial care, or help. I know what fear can be bound up in the heart when the unknown comes creeping up to our door with new and overwhelming challenges.
These last six years have had numerous challenges, and through them, even when I was too weak to think I could, I clung to the Lord with the little strength I had. I cried out to Him in my distress, and I waited. I did not know when He would provide. I did not know how He would provide, but I KNEW HE WOULD PROVIDE.
I have learned over these years that God’s timing is always best, His ways are perfect and He is always faithful and never unjust. I have learned that He is a Promise Maker, but, even more, He is a Promise Keeper.
Most importantly, I have learned that He is the One I must trust. I cannot rely on people to be all that God is to me. I cannot expect my husband to know my heart and understand every portion of it. I cannot presume to know everything about someone else or to have them know all about me. The ONLY ONE who knows me, and has known me since my conception, is God Himself. He desires relationship with me. He created me to worship Him. He knows my deepest longings, the thoughts that scramble in my mind, and He loves me no matter what.
I have had to lean on God, blindly. When I have lived in fogginess in my spirit, and have not had peace or joy or hope, I have prayed words from the Bible because I had no words of my own. I have been so depressed that laughter was a stranger to my lips, and still, over many months, as I spoke encouragement to myself, the Lord restored me to health. I have lost a child and known the longing of holding her in my arms, and having God fill my heart with hope even in that hard time.
Difference in financial status or geographical location does not mean that we do not suffer. I know that there are SO MANY suffering in many different ways at this time. Satan is battling for souls harder than ever. I have seen how fellow believers are being beat down, and my heart cries out for help to the Lord. Many are suffering depressions, many are sick in body, many have financial struggles, many have not only suffered physically but emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. But… I also see how the Lord has begun something amazing. Satan is ANGRY and He is trying His best to destroy us in discouragement, hardship and grief. But… we have the victory in Jesus’ name!!!
Just recently, I received news that made my heart very sad. A dear brother in the Lord is entering a very challenging time, and I felt such a burden on my heart for him. I desired to change his pain into joy, but knew of no way to do that. I prayed for him, but… I did so cautiously. I want to learn to pray for GOD’S WILL. If I pray in my own will, I am going against God’s desires for me or someone else. So, I pray cautiously, though still from my heart.
This is the message I sent him, since I could not tell him in person…
“1 Corinthians 10: 13 says, “No temptation has taken you accept what is common to man. But God is faithful, who will not allow us to be tempted above or beyond what we are able to bear, but… He will, with the temptation, PROVIDE A WAY OF ESCAPE.”
Our Lord is faithful to provide for His children.
M, this is your sister, Celita. I know that it does not make sense, how sometimes challenges come our way, and hurt so badly. I love you, my brother, and I desire God’s richest blessings for you. I know that you depend on R and S for financial needs. But now they are also in need. We must ALL trust GOD to provide. We must TRUST IN, CLING TO, RELY ON, and BELIEVE in Him. His is a faithful God. WE CAN trust Him. WE can. WE must surrender our whole selves to Him so He can do an amazing work in our hearts, souls and lives. When we surrender and trust, when we dedicate our everything to Him (our weaknesses, our strengths, our joys, our sorrows, our everything), He can use it all to bring Glory to Himself. And, because He loves us so much, He has promised us His joy unspeakable to overflowing, his peace that passes all understanding, and His hope to give us strength for every day.
WE MUST PUSH THROUGH TO VICTORY!! I know that this will be hard for you, but… You can do it!! I know that as you cling to Jesus with every thing that is in you… all of your heart, soul, mind and strength… God will give you “strength for today and hope for tomorrow.” He WILL.
He is the same yesterday, today and forever. He has helped me, and so… He will help you. And in Philippians it says that “being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will be faithful to bring it to completion…” It is not in us, but through Christ that this is accomplished.
M and J, my greatest desires for you all are to draw closer to the Lord. That is the MOST important thing we can do in our lives… to choose to be His friend and persevere no matter the obstacles. May the Lord fill your hearts with encouragement.
Someday I hope to see you, if not here on the Earth, then in the Lord’s presence. Please, continue walking the narrow path that leads to heaven, for I long to spend eternity with all of you…”
This message was written to others, but… I would also share the same words WITH YOU. For you are also important in God’s sight. He has not lost sight of you nor forgotten you. But… You must surrender and trust God with all that is in you, even when you do not understand. Acknowledge Him in all your ways, live a right life before Him, and He will help you along your journey in this life.
That I know.
Be blessed, until next I write…
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