Monday, October 11, 2010
There is no excuse. Really, I know that. I have fully intended to get back to blogging, Facebook, and the online life.
Life in September and in this beginning part of October has been a daily exercise in surrendering to Jesus. I cannot at all go into details, as it involves the lives of others, but... To say that these are dangerous times for the soul is an understatement. When depression, suicide, and other major things are mixed together in the lives of people in a community, well, let us just say that we are ALL in desperate need of God's grace, mercy, wisdom, and discernment. To watch valued relationships crumble in mistrust, bitterness, and resentment sends my soul in tears.
There are several situations going on in my relationships that are challenging me to PRAISE hard and Pray even harder. I am daily being challenged to pray with power and thanksgiving, even in the midst of heartache.
That is only bits and pieces of some of what is going on in my life, at least in close relationships around me. Not just one, but many. And God has put me in a place to try to encourage, try to build up, try to minister. I am trying to be a good steward with these moments, as I don't want to miss an opportunity that He gives me, and I certainly WANT to see these lives bettered, healed, and restored.
On top of that, I am in the midst of trying to get my license here in Italy. Between waiting for our needed addition to be completed and trying to get my license, I am being tremendously stretched in faith and patience. But, as always, God is faithful to give me what I need for every day.
The kids have begun school, and, although that has its own share of challenges, I am so grateful that the Lord is waking us up with the intention to have a positive attitude and make the most of our mornings. I have been doing mini devotions with the kids even before they begin to get ready since the second day of school. It came on after we had a rough 1st day of school when I woke everyone and got ready TOO LATE. Horrible way to begin the school year. But... sure motivated me to do better
Thank You, Lord, for Your faithfulness. You give me "strength for today and hope for tomorrow"; You remind me that "all things come, to pass"; You provide for our needs (psychologically, emotionally, spiritually, and physically, and You even care enough to provide for some of our wants. I call them "love letters to my heart". You know, when somethings unexpected comes, a secret longing fulfilled, or just something that lifts the spirit, brings gladness to the heart, makes you smile, or really just overwhelms you with a feeling that you ARE special. That is what I mean. He does that for me, all the time.
As I put Him first, include Him in the moments of my days- good or bad, as I speak to Him, read His Word, and meditate on Him, in word or song... Well, I am learning more about Him. As I draw near to Him, He is DRAWING near to me. As He promised in the Bible. As I try to maintain my focus on Him, give Him the first fruits of my days, and share His love with others, that blessings goes to those shared with but also returns to me. It is a blessing to bless.
All of these things He has done for me in these days, weeks, months, years. He loves me. I know it. He thinks I am special, in spite of my MANY mistakes, faults, and quirkiness. He has a plan for me. Yes! He said in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." Wow!! What I think is so great is that I am firmly learning that God is not just a Promise Maker, He truly is a Promise Keeper. So I can trust Him to keep His word to bless, keep, and help me and my family as we stay close to Him.
And you know what is great? He loves YOU so much, He wants to be there for YOU in the same way. Well, specialized just for you and how He knows you, but still... intensely loving you.
I hope that blesses your heart as much as it blesses mine.
Well, that is all for now. Hope this sporadic posting is not discouraging you from coming over to see what is new. Please DO check in again. Who knows? Maybe by then, I will have a bunch more for you to see and read. I hope so. We will see how these days go. Thank you for checking in this time.