Saturday, April 30, 2011
Cloudy with Intermitent Sunshine... (A.K.A The Fogged Flower) :-)
I would like to open with these verses that I read yesterday. They were an encouragement to me, and I hope they will be to you as well.
Psalm 40:9-11; 16-17
"I have proclaimed the good news of righteousness in the great assembly; Indeed, I do not restrain my lips, O Lord, You Yourself know.
I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart; I have declared Your faithfulness and Your salvation; I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth from the great assembly.
Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O Lord; Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve me.
Let all who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let such as love Your salvation say continually, 'The Lord be magnified!'
But I am poor and needy; Yet the Lord thinks upon me. You are my help and my deliverer; Do not delay, O my God."
I have been missing in action, I know... Oh, where do I start? Life has been a constant challenge, one after another built up on one giant one or two or three. I have been battling non-stop with trying to "encourage myself daily", trying to keep my home a sanctuary in the midst of trials, home addition construction, relationship catastrophies and stresses and misunderstandings, and sickness. Lots of things.
A friend asked me yesterday how I am, and I had to really think about that. I know there are moments when I struggle not to respond negatively, but I know that I also want to encourage myself and others. I know I want to remember that even in the midst of hard times, I am blessed. I know I NEED to remember the Christian clichè that is SO true, "God IS good; All the time. All the time; God is good." And I want to bless His name for that. So, I told her this, "I do not know how to explain how I am. Not bad, and not good. I am more... seeking, waiting, hoping. God knows what my needs are, and He knows the moment to intervene. I wait, trying to trust every day, trying to surrender to Him and His will every day. And I remember that He knows where I am."
I am not bad off. I am blessed. I am seeing answers to prayer. I am seeing my family a little healthier. I know that sunny days and warm weather are right around the corner. It is just the deepest parts of me that feel a little... stuck in a cloud. Not depressed. Not this time. More, just... waiting for that Light to clear away the cobwebs and fill me to overflowing with new rain again. I see the blessings. I know that I am in a waiting place. Some might say it is dangerous to be there. I agree, if it is a place I stay in for an extended amount of time; but I must also remember, I have recently gotten to the place where if one more trial had come I felt I might just crack. So, I do feel that this is a waiting place to be restored, to be patched up, the spiritual infirmary, if you will. :-)
All that to say, thank you for reading. I apologize for not being in touch more often, and I really DO want to. But life has just been too full, and I have had to priortize my time with other things that weigh more heavily and require my constant attention.
I am grateful for you. I hope you are doing well. If you are, praise God. If you are also in the midst of a harder time, remember this... "The Lord inhabits the praise of His people." I know it is not always easy, but I promise that as you incorporate the habit of praising Him even on the hardest days, Light will seep in. After all He says, "Seek me, and you will find Me."... "Draw close to Me, and I will draw close to you." He is deserving of our praise even on our worst days. He never changes, we do.
He is bigger than any challenge, trial, catastrophy, or hard time. He has this world, our times and seasons, our families, relationships, and selves in His hands. We must trust in, cling to, rely on, and believe in Him. He is our Source of Refreshing, Help, Comfort. He is our Defender, our Advocate, our Shelter in the midst of the storms. He is sufficient for all of our needs.
I send you a hug. You can do it, in Him you can do it... Love you, dear one.
p.s. I am also going over in a bit to add some new papercuts to the other blog. Please feel free to go and see... Click Here.